What’s your big dream?

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On Monday I took the day off to attend a LuLaRoe training with Annabelle, since I’ve become her right-hand-woman as she starts her own business. We’re even becoming a “brand” in her VIP group on Facebook due to our shenanigans during FB Live sales (join the group so you can experience it for yourself).

Anyway, while some of the training was kind of cheesy and some was downright weird, I fully admit that when we were asked to write down our big hairy dream, I was a bit stumped. But then Annabelle asked me what mine was…and I started crying.


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All I’ve ever wanted was to work a job where I felt like I was wanted and needed. Like I wasn’t fighting against the tide. Like I wasn’t trying to change everyone’s mind all the time. Like I wasn’t begging people to want to work with me.

Weird that I’d want to start helping out with what is basically a retail sales gig, right?

But I love customer service. I love helping people. I love connecting people with the information, people, or items that will enrich their lives or help them out in some way. I didn’t realize it at the time, but it’s one of the reasons I went to library school.

Unfortunately, because I didn’t know it at the time, I went a completely different way with my career and ended up in positions where I was managing change. Where I was moving people’s cheese and trying to get them to like it. And it wears you down, you know?


Do I want to be my own boss? I honestly don’t know if I have the hustle for that. One of my favorite jobs was actually processing criminal case files at the county courthouse because it was fun for me and didn’t require me to do any kind of change management. It just didn’t take as much time as they thought it would (or I’m just really, really efficient) so I was bored a lot. I hate being bored.


I don’t know exactly what my big dream is. I don’t know exactly what I want to be when I grow up. I just know that I want to do something that helps other people without me having to tell them how much it will help them if they just stop resisting change. And maybe it includes some data entry. Because I weirdly like that.

In the meantime, I’ll help out Annabelle, cry occasionally, and try and figure it out.

What’s your big hairy dream? What do you want to be when you grow up?

Oh, and if you want, I’m hosting a shindig at my house in June where you can shop for these exact Stella & Dot pieces in person. If you want an invite, just leave a comment and I’ll send it to you!


6 replies on “What’s your big dream?

  1. Anne

    I’m with you – I still have no idea what I want to be when I grow up. But when I think of the jobs I’ve actually enjoyed, they were working in a fast food restaurant (small, locally owned) and working in retail. I remember feeling so good when I could help a customer find exactly what they were looking for, and in my job now that’s still what makes me happy. I majored in sociology hoping to go on to social work someday so I could really help people, and instead I’m currently helping consultants write their sales proposals. But I won’t be doing this job forever and I’m sure I’ll figure something else out. And as long as you keep trying stuff like helping Annabelle and something is bound to stick eventually.

  2. Bethany @ Accidental Intentions

    Oh man, what a question! There have been aspects of every job I’ve ever had that I’ve liked and disliked, but the job that for me had the highest like:dislike ratio was definitely being a summer camp counselor. I would’ve done that job forever if it had been reasonable. I think what I liked the most about it was the way it let me–forced me, really–to build relationships with people, and all sorts of people at that. I had to build relationships with my campers, who were anywhere between the ages of six and 13 and treated you the way you’d expect to be treated by someone their age (anywhere between being treated as a mom figure by the littlest kids to either a cool older sister or obnoxious, ignorant authority figure by the 13 year olds), but I also was on a staff with probably 50 or so people around my age that I had to work with either as a co-counselor or just by virtue of being on the same staff. And beyond that, camp gave you permission to be as wildly, unapologetically you. You can be ridiculous and silly and goofy, but you can also be a leader, depending on the situation. And beyond that, there was never a dull moment, and I meant that literally. You never had an unscheduled minute. There was no sitting around, twiddling your thumbs waiting for 5:00 to roll around. You were always doing something, even if that something was supervising and not actively doing much of anything. THAT, I think is a HUGE key to job satisfaction – avoiding boredom, like you mentioned. But goodness knows I certainly haven’t found a job that would require me to build relationships at all times and keep me busy for the full day that pays more than $200/week (before taxes) and offers benefits!

  3. Maggie

    My latest dream is to combine my extensive background in communication with my love and knowledge of data and analytics and do data storytelling around health issues. The pie in the sky dream is to eventually convince the powers that be (and public opinion) that we should have a single-payer system. But in the meantime, if I could just report on other people’s research, and/or help improve processes in how healthcare is delivered, and/or justify community outreach programs, etc, I would be really happy. Basically, if I could translate data in a way that results in saving lives, I think I would enjoy that work and feel like I’m leaving behind a legacy that I can be proud of.

    Only took me 13 years to figure this out … now how many more to get there?

  4. Jen @ Librarian for Life and Style

    Wow, what an honest post. I have felt very similar to what you describe feeling, where I ultimately just want to be appreciated at my job and valued. I, too, felt that I had been “struggling against the tide,” as librarianship is one of those professions where we seem to be CONSTANTLY proving our worth. To administrators, to faculty, to students, to the public, on and on. I was both excited and scared to make the move I did last year, but it has turned out to be a wonderful decision, and one I didn’t even realize at the time how much I really needed. I’m finally, finally, FINALLY at a position that pushes me, skills-wise, but also provides a stable base for me to do what I do well. That combination had eluded me until now. And I have a library director who is the most supportive boss I’ve ever worked for. And it’s made all the difference. 🙂

  5. Dee

    Being an “oldster” I was/am very fortunate, in that because of my exposure to very special teachers, I knew in 5th grade I would be a teacher, and in 8th, I was inspired by my art teacher. The rest is history, as I worked toward my goal and became what I dreamed I would and could be.
    I was fortunate that I didn’t have the angst of making life changing decisions, somewhere, somehow, it was done for me. All I had to do was follow that dream to realization. Have had a great career and would do it all again……………with no changes.

  6. Margaret

    omg, reading this made me cry! and i’m SO SO SO with you, Erin! if you didn’t know that already, you are definitely not alone!
    the things i’ve been telling myself lately, as i’m truly trying something new – again – are – 1) keep trying different things and 2) am i still learning?

    also, just read this article before reading your blogpost that hit the spot and has some good questions to ask:

    THANK YOU for being so open and honest. i have always really admired that about you and this blog is a just a fraction of who you are, and all that you do! (which is a LOT!)

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